This morning as I was checking the news, I came across this story about Oprah. She discusses how disappointed she is with herself that she fell off the healthy weight wagon. Oprah, I’m right there with you!
A little history….I have struggled with my weight for the past ten years. I am about 5’3, so an ideal weight for me is between 123-128 lbs. In college, my weight crept up to 143 and I used diet and exercise to lose 25 pounds. I maintained a healthy weight for about 3 years; then I got married. I gained almost 15 pounds during my first year of marriage! I was just about to start a diet when I found out that I was pregnant with Jade. Now during my pregnancy, I was diagnosed with a condition called hyperemesis. Hyperemesis is basically morning sickness to the nth degree. I was so sick that I lost about 25 lbs. over the first six months of my pregnancy. Factor in exclusive breastfeeding and by the time Jade was six weeks, I was a very thin 122 pounds.
How then did I manage to gain thirty-five pounds over the next twenty-nine months? Well, I chalk it all up to the power of the White Lady…sugar. I am addicted. So I became a SAHM. I cooked and cleaned and snacked. I took Jade to the Zoo and the Children’s Museum and snacked. I went to parks and playgrounds and snacked. And I gained 35 pounds. My favorites? Welch’s Fruit snacks, lemon pies from Chick-fil-A, Jake’s ice -cream at the bookstore, oh I could go on and on. Not to mention book club brunches, Bible study bagels and the like.
So, when I found out that I was pregnant again (once I got over the shock), I was happy to know that my weight problems were over. I knew I would have a miserable pregnancy but that when it was over I would be at my ideal weight. And, like clockwork, it happened. Eight weeks after giving birth, my hubby and I celebrated our anniversary at a black tie event and I was in a slinky, size 4, Calvin Klein number and I looked GOOD!
Well, like Oprah, I am saying…HOW DID I LET THIS HAPPEN? I’ve gained 12 lbs. since March; same pace as last time. I am so very disappointed with myself. Worse, I feel so powerless to stop it and I desperately, desperately want to.
So, I’ll be picking up the January edition of O and looking for solutions. In the meantime, I’m standing in solidarity woth Oprah.